Exactly a year ago, I celebrated my 18th birthday with a girl I truly in love most. This year seems like the same like any other years. Nothing much, nothing less. 
Things have change now, but my feelings for her will never change. 
I’m still the same person as I am before, stubborn as ever. All I can say is that she’s worth the pain. Worth the wait.
I will never forget the way we started talking, the way we fell in love with each other, the way we make us laugh with our jokes, everything. She has given me so much to remember that it’s impossible to forget. God bless you, Ayu. I love you.
You deserve to be happy, even if it’s no longer being with me. I will always put your happiness first over mine. 
Goodnight & Happy 19th Birthday to myself.

Exactly a year ago, I celebrated my 18th birthday with a girl I truly in love most. This year seems like the same like any other years. Nothing much, nothing less.
Things have change now, but my feelings for her will never change.
I’m still the same person as I am before, stubborn as ever. All I can say is that she’s worth the pain. Worth the wait.
I will never forget the way we started talking, the way we fell in love with each other, the way we make us laugh with our jokes, everything. She has given me so much to remember that it’s impossible to forget. God bless you, Ayu. I love you.
You deserve to be happy, even if it’s no longer being with me. I will always put your happiness first over mine.
Goodnight & Happy 19th Birthday to myself.

When I lost you, I lost myself too. Happy 20th to me, myself and I. 
Things are slowly getting better and better for me. Slowly picking myself up from all the mess you’ve made. You’re one cheeky little bastard for leaving me for someone new. 
That one bastard I will never say no to. Hahaha fuck you for everything. 
Love, Arriszuan Arham.

When I lost you, I lost myself too. Happy 20th to me, myself and I.
Things are slowly getting better and better for me. Slowly picking myself up from all the mess you’ve made. You’re one cheeky little bastard for leaving me for someone new.
That one bastard I will never say no to. Hahaha fuck you for everything.
Love, Arriszuan Arham.

Happy 19th to me, myself and I. I’m still hoping that one day you would come back to me. I’m still waiting for the day that I can proudly call you mine again. As much as it hurts to say this, I love you, Ayu. I love you so so much. Ever since the day you left, I lost everything. Like literally everything. You’re my hope, my dream, my everything. So please if there’s a chance for us to get back together, please give me the chance to show you what I’m made of. 
Goodnight to myself.

Happy 19th to me, myself and I. I’m still hoping that one day you would come back to me. I’m still waiting for the day that I can proudly call you mine again. As much as it hurts to say this, I love you, Ayu. I love you so so much. Ever since the day you left, I lost everything. Like literally everything. You’re my hope, my dream, my everything. So please if there’s a chance for us to get back together, please give me the chance to show you what I’m made of. 
Goodnight to myself.

Why do people have to say such things without knowing the truth about me ? I know that I’ve hurt the people around me with the things that I’ve done. But that doesn’t really make me a bad person. Cause I keep the balance on doing the good things and the bad things in life. I don’t even get it why do people have to judge so quickly without even knowing or asking me why I did this or that. Life is unfair, and it’s not easy being me. People tend to forget about the good things I’ve done, and never fails to point out my mistakes whenever I did or do something wrong towards others. Sometimes I don’t see the point for me to change for the better. Cause the only thing these people see in me is a boy who’s full of bullshits. But it’s okay, I’m done trying. Let’s just wait and see where time will bring myself to. Goodbye & Goodnight to myself.